Change... It's something I've never been afraid of before, something that I am open to, something that I know is inevitable in life. It is a part of life and it must happen in order to evolve. However, I really seem to struggle with changing myself. There is a HUGE list of things that need, must, change in my life. Why, oh why, is it so incredibly difficult? Change is so necessary!
I am desperate at this point. I have come to my wit's end. I think I may go insane soon. I used to keep a journal and absolutely loved it! I still do it, but just a few times a year. I just cant seem to put pen to paper. Maybe I'm afraid of what will end up on that paper.  I am hoping that maybe blogging will be a little easier since I'm already on my computer everyday anyway. Plus, if I can receive some much needed encouragement and advice, that would be the ultimate pay off!
I am excited to start this 'change' in my life. I see this as not just starting a new chapter in my life, but a whole new book! A book full of blank pages. A book that I can hopefully be proud to leave for my children. Right now, I feel pretty useless to my children. I make money to support them and right now milk to support one of them. That's pretty much it. This. must. change.
I am broken. I am open.